New Beginnings

Tomorrow I start over, I get a new beginning, a second chance. This past semester I discovered that I was definitely not meant to be a music major. It all started a year ago, all the applying for different colleges, auditioning, and waiting. On the inside I always believed that Utah State was where I was meant to be so there was no hesitation when I prayed and I received my answer. After Scholarship auditions for the music program I continued to pray and recieved the answer that I was suppose to be a music major. As the semester progressed I discovered I was miserable, I had never been so unhappy. I was lost wondering why Heavenly Father sent me to Utah State to be a music major when what resulted was a horrible semester full of struggles and barriers. The past few weeks I reflected upon everything I learned about myself and realized that Heavenly Father knew exactly what he was doing when he sent me here to be a music major. I learned lessons about life and about me that I couldn't have learned anywhere else. Tomorrow Heavenly Father is giving me a new beginning at Utah State, a chance to be true to who I am. Tomorrow is the day I begin my journey to become a nurse, my lifelong dream. I know Heavenly Father has put me on this path for a reason just like he has done so many times before. I know he is there for me and will always help me. Heavenly Father has given me hope for a fresh start. He gives us all hope to start clean, we must always remember that it is never to late to have a new beginning, a fresh start but one that we will still carry all our previous life lessons through. We go through adversity so we can carry everything we learn to a new place, a new beginning. Tomorrow is my new beginning, one that will not be faced alone.

Hope

I have hope in Christ. I know that through the wind and pouring rains, the storm, and the tempests that hope will endure and can rise above all. Hope is the key to happiness. Finding hope in Christ, in the Gospel and in this world is changing my life. Hope is found not all at once but by searching and walking towards it one step at a time. Each step we take brings us closer to our Savior and to our wonderful Father in Heaven. I have hope.

Ultimate Love

Ever since I was a child I always seemed to be impacted by the emotions of those around me more than others. I have often times found my self being the listener and trying to do everything in my power to comfort others. Today a person I care about very much had a terrible thing happen to him. My friend., Darren, found his best friend after he had committed suicide. I had no idea how to comfort him and spent the entire day trying to become a place of solace for him. That night I found consolation in tears and a phone call to my Mother. While talking I realized I had learned a lesson I had not intended to learn. The death of Zach, a person that I had not known that well had impacted me to an extent beyond measure. Knowing what had happened to Zach was hard but what was unbearable was the pain I felt because of the pain his death had brought to those I care about. Seeing Darren and many other friends go through such a trying time had impacted me. I then realized that if their pain was becoming my pain to the extent it was, how much greater was Christ's pain and our Father in Heavens pain. I realized that they both have an ultimate love. Love that is beyond measure. Everytime I cry, he crys with me. He feels my pain and goes through every minute of anger, sadness, and grief right along with me. I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ have an ultimate love for me and for everyone upon this Earth. I have never felt their love so strong before. We all find ourselves in moments of weakness and doubt, feeling alone and disheartened, if we open our hearts in the moment of despair. They will enter and fill the empty, bring calm to the chaos, and companionship to the lonesome. I know that Christ loves me and you. I know that you have a Father in Heaven who loves you and who loves me. I am his daughter and he is always by my side. I have hope through their love.